Flow is being completely involved in an activity for its own sake. The ego falls away.–Mihály Csíkszentmihályi
I moved from the west coast to the east coast to complete residency training as an internal medicine physician. Adjusting to the cold, buzz, and concrete has been different from the beaches and trees I saw regularly before I moved. Although the hours spent in the hospital or on my computer preparing patient care have been meaningful, I am left with a feeling that I am not in my element, I am not in flow. This blog aims to reconcile the parts of myself that refuse to be split between the whimsical young lady who stands barefoot on the beach, giggling as I close my eyes with my face turned upwards to take in the sun and the doctor who stands at the hospital bedside, reassuring a patient in critical condition as I glance down at the blood on my sneakers at the end of a 30 hour shift. In highlighting journeys of the flow state, this blog features the path to achieve unification of our whole selves with what we do. I write anonymously as my opinions are my own and do not reflect on the institutions I am professionally part of that have given me the opportunities to learn and grow into the flow state.